Sometimes things are better left unsaid...

Telling me one thing and doing another is pointless and wastes both our time.

I'm writing this while I'm getting traffic jam on my way to Bandung. I'm going to attend my friend's wedding ceremony on this Sunday. So here I am, sitting on the minibus and nothing to do, I decide writing to you. Because of the bad network, so I posted this writing to my facebook's notes.

Sometimes things are better left unsaid. People ask you to tell them what you're thinking about because they can't guess. But after you tell them, they pretend like they don't know anything or they don't even care. So what's the point of telling if there's no difference. It's like wind fly away cause dissapointment. 

I get jealous because I'm afraid someone is going to make you happier than I do.

I've told that person what I'm thinking about and what I'm afraid of. It just doesn't mean I don't trust and I truly know action speaks louder than words. But you know, sometimes statement can complete your actions. I really wanna said to you, I'm jealous, but I realise that's really childish so I chose to keep silent. Those things are part of your life and your world that I don't mean to change anything. Sometimes I just want to be part of them though I know I've already been part of your other world. 

I've told you times about things that bother me indirectly but seems that you keep continuing those things. No, I'm not mad. I don't need to be. Feelings can't lie. I had those kind of feelings, still having, but I hope I'm not going to have. Maybe I haven't understood yet or I'm just too sensitive. What I should do, just forget it, pretend that everything's alright, left unsaid, hope I can understand more.

If you weren't jealous every once in a while, you wouldn't be in love. 

4th month in 22nd

Life is showing me who really worthwhile and who is not...

Hey, you! Sorry for late sharing this month to you... Let's named this month beloved month :D

First week of this month, my company celebrated its 40th anniversary in a luxurious auditorium. I came to that celebration with two of my colleagues who are my guys then some hang outs. It's not so much for the first week.

The second week I was so busy with my audit tasks so I came late almost every day. Half of this week I spent again at flower city, Bandung. I attended my besties' graduation. Finally, that was the day they graduated. Hope they are going to get good job and may the best come to them. Of course, this visit I met him and I had written earlier...

The third week i finished my audit tasks and had a closing meeting before I had a long weekend. I decided back to my hometown after ten months. Four days three nights I think it's enough for me. My parents picked me up at airport, when I saw them, their faces were cheerful. We had brunch then I went to meet my girls, we went out till night. What did we do? We had late lunch at a Thai restaurant, Jittlada. We talked about everything because long time no see each other. Then, we moved to a sky dining cafe, The Edge, saw the city from 16th floor. Medan isn't so bad at the night. We had dinner at a unique cafe, Waroeng Kopi Waknoer. We're so happy and hope for another hang out day in the future. My days at Medan, I spent mostly with my lovely mom, my best of the bestfriends in this world, we ate, shopped, and hang out together. I knew though she was very busy at that time, still she would make time out for me, that's not everybody can do it for me. She's the best person I had ever known in this world till today. I love you so much, Mom and I'll always miss you...

Last week of this month, two my besties came from Bandung, then we went out to Grand Indonesia.  Every half an hour, we entered resto or cafe. Can you imagine? So, we spent hours around food area in that mall. From Pizza Bar, Mochilla Mochi Ice Cream, Magnum Cafe, Kiyadon Sushi, shopped dress for a while, continued to Come Buy Bubble Tea, then ended at Manhattan The Fish Market. What a fun and tired Saturday night! Getting fat and shopped together, what can be more fun? The next day we had Chinese culinary for breakfast and lunch then I brought them to the travel. After that, I cleaned my room while waiting for the date with my beloved one :p We watched Skyfall which was not so good but still good. What a short time spending with him, but it's quite enough to redeem missing. Days after this weekend, I slept like a pig. After work, I came home, took a bath, and slept till morning. Maybe I was so tired.

Celebration with my beloved people for graduation, coming home, girls night out, girls hang out, dating, this month full of fun and love. Cheers!

Being a female is a matter of birth...

Being a woman is a matter of age...

But being a lady is a matter of choice...

The Marriage Proposal

"He stole my heart, so I stole his last name"

Nowadays, I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I keep browsing about the pre-wedding photos till marriage proposals. I love seeing all those photos, the sweet couples look at each other with love, their faces are cheerful and shining. All those photos are beautiful, captured the lovely moments of two who will hand in hand facing the future together. I just think it doesn’t matter those photos took in beautiful places, or just studios, they just great because captured the love of the couples.

Till I read about some unique marriage proposals, they all really impressed me. Their men’s effort in proposing their women were amazing. They tried to show how much they love their partners, how will they want them in their life, how sure they chose them to spend their rest of life, to tell the world the women they love so much. I dreamed of firework proposal or balloon proposal. Both of them are beautiful in the sky. But though i won't ever get those kinds of proposal, when he, the one I love, propose me, that will become the most beautiful part. 

I’m thinking which story will be mine later, I do have my own story. Every meetings of two people till they become life partner is unique, no matter what it is. So, I’m sure mine is unique in its way.

“To me, you are perfect.”

“I vow to help you love life, to always hold you with tenderness, and to have the patience that love demands. To speak when words are needed, and to share the silence when they’re not. And to live within the warmth of your heart and always call it home.”