Sometimes things are better left unsaid...

Telling me one thing and doing another is pointless and wastes both our time.

I'm writing this while I'm getting traffic jam on my way to Bandung. I'm going to attend my friend's wedding ceremony on this Sunday. So here I am, sitting on the minibus and nothing to do, I decide writing to you. Because of the bad network, so I posted this writing to my facebook's notes.

Sometimes things are better left unsaid. People ask you to tell them what you're thinking about because they can't guess. But after you tell them, they pretend like they don't know anything or they don't even care. So what's the point of telling if there's no difference. It's like wind fly away cause dissapointment. 

I get jealous because I'm afraid someone is going to make you happier than I do.

I've told that person what I'm thinking about and what I'm afraid of. It just doesn't mean I don't trust and I truly know action speaks louder than words. But you know, sometimes statement can complete your actions. I really wanna said to you, I'm jealous, but I realise that's really childish so I chose to keep silent. Those things are part of your life and your world that I don't mean to change anything. Sometimes I just want to be part of them though I know I've already been part of your other world. 

I've told you times about things that bother me indirectly but seems that you keep continuing those things. No, I'm not mad. I don't need to be. Feelings can't lie. I had those kind of feelings, still having, but I hope I'm not going to have. Maybe I haven't understood yet or I'm just too sensitive. What I should do, just forget it, pretend that everything's alright, left unsaid, hope I can understand more.

If you weren't jealous every once in a while, you wouldn't be in love. 

4th month in 22nd

Life is showing me who really worthwhile and who is not...

Hey, you! Sorry for late sharing this month to you... Let's named this month beloved month :D

First week of this month, my company celebrated its 40th anniversary in a luxurious auditorium. I came to that celebration with two of my colleagues who are my guys then some hang outs. It's not so much for the first week.

The second week I was so busy with my audit tasks so I came late almost every day. Half of this week I spent again at flower city, Bandung. I attended my besties' graduation. Finally, that was the day they graduated. Hope they are going to get good job and may the best come to them. Of course, this visit I met him and I had written earlier...

The third week i finished my audit tasks and had a closing meeting before I had a long weekend. I decided back to my hometown after ten months. Four days three nights I think it's enough for me. My parents picked me up at airport, when I saw them, their faces were cheerful. We had brunch then I went to meet my girls, we went out till night. What did we do? We had late lunch at a Thai restaurant, Jittlada. We talked about everything because long time no see each other. Then, we moved to a sky dining cafe, The Edge, saw the city from 16th floor. Medan isn't so bad at the night. We had dinner at a unique cafe, Waroeng Kopi Waknoer. We're so happy and hope for another hang out day in the future. My days at Medan, I spent mostly with my lovely mom, my best of the bestfriends in this world, we ate, shopped, and hang out together. I knew though she was very busy at that time, still she would make time out for me, that's not everybody can do it for me. She's the best person I had ever known in this world till today. I love you so much, Mom and I'll always miss you...

Last week of this month, two my besties came from Bandung, then we went out to Grand Indonesia.  Every half an hour, we entered resto or cafe. Can you imagine? So, we spent hours around food area in that mall. From Pizza Bar, Mochilla Mochi Ice Cream, Magnum Cafe, Kiyadon Sushi, shopped dress for a while, continued to Come Buy Bubble Tea, then ended at Manhattan The Fish Market. What a fun and tired Saturday night! Getting fat and shopped together, what can be more fun? The next day we had Chinese culinary for breakfast and lunch then I brought them to the travel. After that, I cleaned my room while waiting for the date with my beloved one :p We watched Skyfall which was not so good but still good. What a short time spending with him, but it's quite enough to redeem missing. Days after this weekend, I slept like a pig. After work, I came home, took a bath, and slept till morning. Maybe I was so tired.

Celebration with my beloved people for graduation, coming home, girls night out, girls hang out, dating, this month full of fun and love. Cheers!

Being a female is a matter of birth...

Being a woman is a matter of age...

But being a lady is a matter of choice...

The Marriage Proposal

"He stole my heart, so I stole his last name"

Nowadays, I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I keep browsing about the pre-wedding photos till marriage proposals. I love seeing all those photos, the sweet couples look at each other with love, their faces are cheerful and shining. All those photos are beautiful, captured the lovely moments of two who will hand in hand facing the future together. I just think it doesn’t matter those photos took in beautiful places, or just studios, they just great because captured the love of the couples.

Till I read about some unique marriage proposals, they all really impressed me. Their men’s effort in proposing their women were amazing. They tried to show how much they love their partners, how will they want them in their life, how sure they chose them to spend their rest of life, to tell the world the women they love so much. I dreamed of firework proposal or balloon proposal. Both of them are beautiful in the sky. But though i won't ever get those kinds of proposal, when he, the one I love, propose me, that will become the most beautiful part. 

I’m thinking which story will be mine later, I do have my own story. Every meetings of two people till they become life partner is unique, no matter what it is. So, I’m sure mine is unique in its way.

“To me, you are perfect.”

“I vow to help you love life, to always hold you with tenderness, and to have the patience that love demands. To speak when words are needed, and to share the silence when they’re not. And to live within the warmth of your heart and always call it home.”

Feelings that come back are feelings that never left

Happy Graduation to both my besties, Maria Sun and Fiffy! Finally, you girls one step ahead. Wish you luck and the best for your future! :D

I came to Bandung again on 19 October 2012. After long tired week, finally I went to visit my besties and of course my beloved one too. Arrived at Bandung, felt the cold air, he picked me up and brought me to eat sate padang, long time no eat the yummy sate padang. We canceled our midnight movie dates because I was a little bit tired too.

20 October 2012, graduation day for both besties. I met Fiffy with her boyfriend and we took photos together. Then, I gathered with my college’s friends, the girls, finally it was their day. After that short gathering, I joined Maria’s session. We took several photos. He capture graduation moments of Maria. Su, Yuli, Fitri, and me had lunch at Bieldi, one of my favorite resto during college. Not so much difference, the food’s still delicious and the place’s still simple.

Took a nap for a while before he picked me up and we dated again. We had an early dinner at Daiji Ramen, my most favorite ramen, it tastes so delicious. After that, we had Dredd as our movie date. Then ended our dating at Starbucks. Our date wasn’t such romantic one but once again, it’s not about where or when, it’s just about whom. We talked and saw each other, those two quality things that can’t happen every day. Everything happened after this was beautiful moments. That night was one of my best Saturday night indeed. :D

Last day at Bandung, I spent with him, we went to Green Forest. It’s a resort, café, and outbound. It has a small white chapel and quite beautiful garden. During our visit, there was a couple was having their wedding ceremony there. I like this place, you know. It’s quite nice to sit and have tea time while enjoying the fresh air. :D Wonderful time with your beloved one. What can you expect more than this?

I realized one thing at that time, feelings that come back are the feelings that never left. Years ago, I just didn’t want to admit at that time because I was afraid of those hurts, actually I never forget him. Those feeling to him still the same from years ago till now, even I’m sure now. None will know what’s going to happen. When two meant to be together, everything comes effortless.

So, just let everything flows as the ways and say cheers!

3rd month in 22nd

Anyonghaseyo! This month I felt so much happy, let's called it "joyful month". There were lots of happiness and amazing things happened in my life.

The beginning of this month, one of my colleagues got married but so sad I couldn't attend her wedding party but I wished her and partner the best and happily ever after. Then, I got two old friends would stay for good around Gading. One of them is my friend in colleague and the others is in temple. On the this first week I met both of them. Glad to have them around me. 

On the second week, again, one of my colleagues got married in Bandung, so I shared my time to attend her wedding party besides visit Bandung. I think you have read the stories happened in Bandung. I met him and spent time with him and my besties. I couldn't describe my feeling but for sure thankful for all of those memorable moments. 

Third week was really wonderful. I got holiday again. This time my destination was Belitong and I guess you have read my writing about those amazing beaches in that small island. Everything in that island made me speechless. 

The next week he came to Jakarta and met me and we dated. I have written those moments down. Then the next week he came again because I got off work. He accompanied me and I was shocked. He's just so care you know. Last day of this 3rd month, on 9 October 2012, when I came back from my office, he called me saying that he has arrived in front of my gate. Can you imagine how I felt at that time? I was really really shocked. He asked me to watch the movie. He's just so sweet and surprised me. Once again, it's not about where or when, it's just about whom. 

Dear you,

Thank you for making this month perfect. For everything you have done for me, for every little care you did, for each time you gave, for each portion of your life you shared, for every surprise you made, for every sweet memories you created, for showing me that I'm special and I'm worth.

Regards me.

It's not about where or when, but whom :)

Jakarta, 27-28 September 2012

当我说我对你有感情时，我很乐意表现出来比你能理解的程度要好多了。

When I say that I like you, I really do more than you could understand.

No matter how tired and busy, as long as I can spend my time with my beloved one, I think it's more than enough. Smile and happy, what can I expect more. 

He came to Jakarta for two days, I admit it's such a surprise. He wasn't that kind of person last years ago. 26th March 2010, I've met him in talkshow for the first time. Two half years later, he changed, I changed, everything changed. We met again in different condition but still the same feeling? I'm not sure about this. That chemistry never gets away from me, I realize it so much when our meetings nowadays. I  still feel those strange feelings. Finally, we dated again! I think it's the third date since I knew him, if I'm not wrong. We spent the first night having dinner at Pizza Hut and watching TED. He's so cute, I mean TED :p I can't understand some parts of that movie especially the jokes. Then, we had tea break at Tea Master. He's addicted with bubble tea.

It's about precious moments

The second night was a long nice night for me. We had dinner at Pizza Marzano, the best pizza I've tried, so delicious and really worth the price. He's like child craving for pizza and ate with cheerfully. Then, we went to Calais for the bubble tea again. You know, it's not about where, we just spent in two malls around my place, it's also not about when, we just spent around 11 hours together, it's about whom, hand in hand walking together, the moments, the memories, the talks, the smiles, the laughs, and the happiness. When someone important share their time is precious moments. Can't wait to see him another day in future. We don't know what will happen tomorrow. Just enjoy the moments and say cheers!

Belitong! I'm speechless with your amazing beaches.

Yuhuu!! Gonna share to you my 4 days and 3 nights holiday in a small island called Belitong!

Belitong is an amazing island with beautiful beaches, nice views, rich resources, yummy seasnacks, greens everywhere, and the most I like are the skies and clouds. Those all things made me so speechless!

Setiap kali menggunakan kata "amazing" aku pasti akan teringat dengan lagu "Amazing Kiss" nya BoA. Entah mengapa kata itu benar-benar punya arti mendalam bagiku.

Setelah insiden hampir ketinggalan pesawat karena tidak mendengar panggilan boarding, akhirnya aku dan teman travellingku mendarat dengan mulus di pulau indah ini. Here we were! Kami disambut dengan sarapan mie khas belitong. Actually, itu hanya sejenis lomie di Bandung or emie di Medan. So, it's nothing special meski itu booming sekali di sini.

Mie Belitong

Setelah itu, kami mengunjungi Tanjung Tinggi tempat batu-batu tinggi menjulang yang dijadikan lokasi syuting Laskar Pelangi. Tentu saja aku tidak melewatkan momen untuk berfoto-foto di sana. Pantai Tanjung Tinggi masih sangat bersih dan pasirnya putih seperti tumpukan tepung.

Tanjung Tinggi - Laskar Pelangi

Kemudian kami melanjutkan perjalanan ke Pantai Tanjung Pendam untuk makan siang seafood di tepi pantai. Kami pun mencoba ganga ikan, makanan khas Belitong dan rasanya lezat sekali. Perjalanan pun dilanjutkan ke Bukit Berahu. Kami sempat duduk-duduk merenung di tepi sambil mendengar suara air laut yang menabrak batu-batu. Airnya jernih dan suasananya sangat tenang. Sorenya, kami check in hotel dan istirahat sebentar. Sungguh tidak beruntung langit kelabu sehingga kami tidak dapat menikmati sunset. Kami diajak makan malam di restoran seafood yang rasanya enak sekali, ada menu kepiting, sop baso ikan, cumi blackpepper. Baru hari pertama, kami menyadari kami diperlakukan layaknya putri di private tour ini. Makanannya enak dan pelayanannya memuaskan. :) Baru malam pertama di pulau ini dan kami sudah memutuskan untuk berburu oleh-oleh karena takut hari selanjutnya akan letih. 

Tanjung Kelayang

Hari kedua ini kami habiskan dengan menjelajahi pulau-pulau kecil yang sangat indah di sekitar Belitong. Pulau Kepayang, pulau yang sepi sekali namun airnya jernih dan tetap memiliki khas Belitong, batu yang besar. Kami berenang sebentar di sini dan melanjutkan ke Pulau Lengkuas. Pulau Lengkuas ini sungguh membuatku tak bisa berkata apa-apa selain mengagumi keindahannya. Air, pantai, pasir, batu, dan pemandangan yang sangat wow! Kami menikmati makan siang di pinggir pantai dan menikmati pemandangan yang sungguh indah. Kemudian, kami naik ke mercusuar berlantai 18 untuk melihat dari atas indahnya pulau Lengkuas dan kami hanya bisa menjerit dalam hati, sungguh tak pernah terbayangkan keindahan pulau ini. Di sekitar pulau ini juga ada lokasi snorkeling dengan banyak ikan yang lucu dan terumbu karang warna warni. Kami memberi makan ikan-ikan itu dan tak lupa berfoto ria. Perjalanan selanjutnya ke pulau Burung, sebuah pulau pribadi, yang pemandangannya seperti lukisan. Keren! Selain itu, ada pulau batu berlayar, pulau yang sangat kecil dan isinya hanya batu-batu besar dengan pemandangan yang tak kalah menakjubkan. Kami kembali ke darat untuk berburu sunset, dan sore ini langit juga kelabu. 

Hari ketiga kami diajak melihat sisi lain Belitong, Belitong timur, daerah yang lebih sepi dan sangat jauh berbeda dengan Barat. Dalam perjalanan ke timur, kami singgah di danau Kaolin, danau hasil penambangan kaolin, yang serba putih dan biru turqouise. Vihara Dewi Kwan Im menjadi destinasi pertama kami merupakan vihara tua yang ditemukan tahun 1700an, letaknya di dekat Pantai Burong Mandi. Kami bersembahyang di sana sebentar dan melanjutkan ke Pantai Burong Mandi yang juga tak kalah indahnya dengan pantai-pantai di Belitong barat. Makan siang di restoran dengan banyak peninggalan zaman Belanda yang menghadap tepi danau hasil penambangan timah. Destinasi selanjutnya kota Manggar, kota yang terkenal dengan kota warung 1001 kopi. Kota ini sungguh sepi sekali dan terdapat banyak warung kopi di pinggir jalan. Kami mencoba ngopi di salah satu warkop yang cukup terkenal dan menikmati siang hari yang panas. Kami juga berkunjung ke Bukit Samak , dari atas menikmati pemandangan laut yang memiliki warna biru yang berbeda-beda. Kunjungan selanjutnya ke Pantai Nyiur Melambai yang juga indah. Sepertinya tidak ada pantai yang tidak indah di pulau Belitong. Kami kembali lagi ke Tanjung Pendam untuk berburu sunset dan sekali lagi langit masih juga kelabu. Kami pun membeli oleh-oleh batu satam di toko souvernir. Satam itu batu meteor yang hanya ada di Belitong. Makan malam kami di restoran kecil yang menyediakan kwetiaw goreng yang enak. :) Oh ya, malam ini kami sungguh beruntung mendapatkan kesempatan menikmati suite room. Kami seperti pasangan honeymoon kalau saja berlawan jenis. 

Pagi ini kami diajak ngopi di kopitiam kuno yang sudah terkenal sejak zaman Belanda dan membeli oleh-oleh kopi. Aku juga menikmati telur setengah matang dan suasananya membuatku rindu kampung halaman. Kemudian, kami diantar ke bandara dan saatnya untuk mengucapkan selamat tinggal dengan pulau indah ini. Rasanya setengah nyawa kami akan tinggal di pulau ini. 

Private tour, treated like princess, what can be more wonderful than these all? Spending much money for this worth and wonderful holiday, so happy!

Lengkuas Island

Batu Berlayar

Tanjung Tinggi

Bukit Berahu

Pusat kota Tanjung Pandan, replika Satam

View dari lantai ke 18 mercusuar

Cute red starfish

SD Muhammadiyah - Laskar Pelangi

Cincin satam