Half journey-6th month in 25th-Happy New Year 2016

Today, 9th Jan 16, exactly my half journey in 25th, 9 months I'm staying this boring city fyi if you want to know, and till now I'm still to figure out something to make me more enjoy. Actually I'm enjoying what I did, but I wanna more. I know outside there are so many people about me, whether I'm pregnant or not. Now, I'm telling you, I'm not. Why are you guys so kepo? Is that any matter about my pregnancy? My marriage was not sudden fyi, it's just I didnt tell you because you guys are not important to know. If you still kepo, you can ask my inner circle whether it's express marriage because the pregnancy or not haha.. All were planned before and till now I'm not pregnant, if I am, I'll tell you proudly as mom to be so stop being such kepo. Hell yeah, who dont wanna to be mom, but having a child that's not an easy or hard thing, that's out of our power to plan for him/her.It's not like they give you recipe to bake a cake and your result is less prettier, less sugar, but it's still cake. It cant be like that and I personally never ask that kepo question to my friends. Even my besties, my closest ones never ask me that question because they know exactly happy news would be shared not to be asked. Then, i never make a wrong choice to put them in my inner circles. So, kepoers or maybe you say you care, even one month or months we dont make a contact, if that's you say you care, i think you are just a kepoers.

This month was a lil bit hectic with gathering here and there, Christmas gathering as last meetup in 2015. Thanks everything I've got this year. A patient, kind, and lovely hubby and his family, my family who always pray for my best, new friends who support me fighting in this new city, besties who always pray for me from the distance. 2015 is one of year that make a huge change. Thank you 2015! You accompanied me so well.

My New Year Eve went well, we had family dinner buffet in one of new hotel in town with delicious food and beverage, worth the price, then watched fireworks from upstairs of our home. The first day of New Year me and my hubby went to temple and set free some fishes, birds, and turtles because it's Metta day (1st Jan). The second day we did charity helping fire victims. The rest days accompanied my sis in law and her children who holiday-ing in this town.

So, move on to the other topic : Happy New Year 2016.

Yeah.. another year passed, another year come, that,s about life. Resolution several the main points I plan for this year but if it's out of plan, never mind, human planned, some there more power than us decide.

Business : I don't know sure if I could continue myself as foodgramer, because in this boring city, they don't even see this job worth, they will always see as my hobby. But if they think about it why i should make a new account if it's just hobby. Livia's hobby from years before still capture food and if i see this as hobby then i just continue with my private account. So, now if they pay, I work. If they don't then I just post in my private account that will be no effect for their resto/cafe since lots of my friends are outside this city. That's fair enough and i let this account fly because it's not worth to fight for. Lets move to other ones, projects are waiting.

Family : yeah, my wedding anniversary will be in 2 months ahead, wishing this 2016 giving us more love, harmony, and teamwork for something we plan, and hope for a cute baby too.

Traveling : still have no destination and not sure I'm going somewhere else this year because I've planned several things that make me be in town.

See you next month pals!

Travelmoon Destination : West Europe 27-8 April 2015

I know its so so so late, so basi, or whatever. But gw baru mood buat nulis tentang experience traveling gw ke West Europe which was my travelmoon trip. West Europe was once my dream destination. Pas gw lagi saving untuk jalan2 ke luar negeri, first destination I wanna visit adalah Europe terlepas dari semua destinasi yang ada di seluruh dunia. Why? Simple because it's classic. Ambience di Europe itu klasik, oldies, dengan bangunan2 kuno bersejarah, and gw suka banget lihat yang begituan. Meski akhirnya destinasi ini kalah dengan negara2 lain yang gw visit duluan mulai dari Malaysia, Singapore, China, Thai, Korea, Australia, and Japan, still I should visit Europe dan gw dah ngomong itu sejak gw masih pacaran sama hubby bahwa keinginan gw yang belum terwujud visit those countries sehingga gw mau wujudin itu for our travelmoon before gw gantung koper maybe. So, setelah urusan visa yang mengharuskan kita visit Jakarta sebelum our wedding day, finally visa approved. Bride's reception 14 March, wedding and groom's reception 21 March and 27 March we were in Europe. Ga tau excited gimana meski badan udah mau rontok karena my family baru leave Makassar 24 March dan 26 March kami ke Jakarta dulu daripada resiko nanti delay sana sini better bermalam di Jakarta for one night. Ini bukan pertama kali gw ikt tour sih, kenapa gw lebih suka ikt tour. Pertama, waktu gw terbatas, gw butuh waktu sesingkat2nya untuk visit tempat2 must visit. Kedua, belum tentu gw bakal kembali visit negara itu karena duit gw mau dipake ke tempat lain. Ketiga, gw ga mau jadi orang susah di negeri orang, cukup susah di negeri sendiri saja, gw mau ngerasain hotel yang okay, transportasi nyaman, dan kalau dengan fasilitas yang sama tapi pergi sendiri itu jatuhnya akan jauh lebih mahal, ga sharing toh. So, those three main reasons yang buat gw decide we would do travelmoon who cares the others opinion? We don't even use your money for your approval. Seperti tour biasanya, disuru kumpul di meeting point terminal keberangkatan luar negeri, udah beberapa anggota tour yang hadir juga jadi sekalian nyapa ramah seadanya karena belum saling kenal jadi ya agak kagok aja. Gw sama hubby nongkrong di old town coffee shop sambil nunggu our flight to Dubai. YIhaa kami bakal transit di Dubai trus lanjut flight ke Rome. Ga ada worry sama sekali akan long flight karena udah excited. Dan gw dah nyiapin my coat secara gw langganan masuk angin untuk long flight. So, see you on the flight.

5th Month in 25th

Holaaa 1 week late report to you pals. How do you do? Hope you doing well. Gonna end this year soon. Lots of stories to tell you... here we go...

Akhir tahun kali nih no plan, ga seperti tahun2 lalu aku selalu menghabiskan tahun baru bersama mom, short trip together. Tahun ini ga demikian, maybe I'll just stay here. Things are different now. Marriage make your move ga sebebas dulu pas single. Kamu ga bisa langsung booking tiket pesawat trus fly to somewhere else to celebrate New Year. Things become complicated once you married, itu pasti pals. Hidup sendiri dengan hidup berdua pasti masalah akan timbul. But, I should say hingga hampir 9 bulan aku stay di kota ini, to be honest I still don't get the feel but still have several people attached me well though. That's life game right? Two sides : happy and sad. Air mata udah ga usah dihitung, I'm not lying to you, aku masih cengeng seperti dulu, masih keras di luar tapi di dalam rapuh, meski aku tahu dengan pasti life must go on here, but ga bisa dipungkiri, missing Jakarta, Bandung, even Medan often happens. For me, the environment, society, friends, life there lebih hidup, natural, dan apa adanya. Here, aku lelah menggunakan topeng membuat image baik di mata2 orang agar ga ada yang tersinggung. You know you only the new one in that society, salah sedikit bisa fatal. Hidup udah mulai dari nol di sini masa mau minus dengan adanya enemy. I can't be myself here membaur dengan teman2 di sini, ga bisa ekspresifkan diriku sendiri, dan itu membuatku tertekan. I know very well I have problem about friendship here yang mungkin kamu pals tahu secara jelas, aku yang dijadikan ban serap, aku yang selalu berusaha bagaimanapun tetap salah di mata orang, it's called karma. I understand it well, i must pay everything in this lifetime. But, still, sadness is exist. Hal yang buat kubertahan hingga saat ini hanyalah my lifetime partner, hubby ku, sahabat berkeluh kesah, teman makan, teman traveling, dan juga kedua mertuaku yang luar biasa menjagaku. Kukira kalo tanpa mereka, aku ga akan bertahan di kota yang membuatku merana. Missing my friends di Jakarta, Bandung, Medan, kalian ga tergantikan, aku tahu sebagian dari mereka kadang enggan bertanya tapi diam2 membaca ini, so I just wanna tell you all are precious to me. 

Ga ada gunanya terus complain dengan keadaan yang harus kamu jalani, so just enjoy the path, doing things that make me happy is the only thing to do. Job yang bagi teman2 ku di luar kota "hebat" sebaliknya teman2 di sini bahkan ga memandang, and I'm okay with  that toh memang pendapatan ga seberapa dengan fokus pada socmed yang menghasilkan duit ga seberapa, so let's mulai melepas. I work if you want to pay. If you don't then why I should do. Better explore food I love daripada nyoba makanan yang belum tentu enak dan merusak badan. Timbul lagi masalah baru "gendut" yang dikumandangkan orang. It's just not worth, percuma diliput sama TV ini itu ga menambah value dari kerjaanku, Orang sini sebagian besar hanya menilai dari price. Everything cheap pasti laku dan rame. Daya beli untuk makanan di sini sucks. Aku heran kota besar tapi daya beli rendah, sebagian besar lebih rela shopping di Surabaya, Jakarta, daripada spend di kota nya sendiri. Merasa promosi di socmed, nulis, dan foto mkanan itu pekerjaan mudah dan seharusnya aku kerja karena mereka sudah kasih makanan gratis. Hellooo logika seperti apa itu coba. Aku mending makan makanan kesukaanku tanpa foto, ga usah mikir review, daripada menyusahkan hidup buat membantu pengusaha makanan yang jelas2 tidak berkekurangan. Kalau mau beramal lebih bagus ke yang kurang mampu. Everything has the price bro sis. Battery kamera yang dicharge tiap hari, kuota internet untuk buka path dan ig yang ga dikit, pernak pernik buat foto, explore makanan2 legendaris, smua ada harganya dan ga ada yang gratis. How they can think I got free of charge. They callled that's my hobby. okay yes it is, and aku akan explore makanan2 legendaris yang kusuka, bukan tempat makan baru mewah dan rasanya belum ditahu. It's fair right? How do you think? That's my hobby. Mulai sekarang aku akan lakuin hal yang kusuka, kalo mau minta keringatku ya bayar lha no gratis di dunia ini. Lagian rate masih wajar, at least di socmed masih nongkrong lama daripada koran hitam putih yang besok udah ga ada yang baca. Kerjaan gini di kota lain bakal makmur kalo di sini sih tetap saja kere. Masih jauh dari pendapatan kerja dulu yang harus masuk2 site. Ini buat upgrade kamera aja blom mampu pals. Kebayang ga, tiap hari pasti minimal ada 1 yang tanya endorse bla bal dan belum tentu seminggu jadi 1. Tiap weekend beberapa tempat makan buka baik itu model rumah makan, cafe, beerhouse, coffeeshop tapi ga ada panggilan karena mereka ga butuh orang2 kayak aku begini, mereka lebih pentingin sosialita ibu2 yang hang out di sana, ibu2 begitu diundang pas opening. Kebanting banget kan sama kota lain yang lebih mentingin socmed promote. Yah. ini lah di sini ga tau unik atau aneh, beda tipis. haha... so, hufff puass juga unek2 yang ditahan selama ini dikeluarin, sebenarnya dari bulan2 lalu cuma ya kebetulan mau akhir tahun sekalian diselesaikan haha. Anyway, thanks for reading pals. gonna update soon to you about new year resolution. See you ahead.

The best partner in my life

There's no one perfect but at least you can choose the one who try to become the best for you and it's my hubby, my best partner in my life till today. Being married for me is not something easy. Leaving all my besties, my job, and the most important my freedom.  Move to the city that is really "'unusual" habits really make me stressful.

But few weeks ago, my mom asked that simple question : "Are you really happy there? Happier than when you stayed at Jakarta alone?" That's really simple question that made me think again, am I happier than I used to be alone with full freedom? Being married means half freedom because every decision you should share to your spouse and it's really not an easy thing for a seven years independent woman. But, let's think about it, am I happier.

I think yes, of course I'm happier. I didn't need to do my hard job, riding far away into mining spot for weeks, analyzed the cases, interviewing the employees, all those made my mind nowadays "light". I didn't need to go home alone, dinner alone, and spend time alone.

I have my partner with me now and I think he's the best. Everyone sees him know that he is a very kind person and suits me well, patient enough to muffle my emotion. The one who never let me do hard things alone, spoil me, take care of me, the person beside me when I open my eyes in the morning and close my eyes in the night, the one who I'm not lazy to cook for, the one who I can become me and he always try to make me happy because he hate my cries. What others think I need more than these, more than enough and worth my move right? Someone accept your flaws, feel lucky having you,always try to make you happy, and always learn about you, it's the best partner in life. 

4th Month in 25th

Holaaa pals... Good to see you not very late this month...

This month just a lil bit busy hehe... running a small food business hope can expand it. I think my fortune is around culinary haha... Well, let's gambling for this unique or strange city. Some random moments happened this month pals, I met some new friends include Medanese and Makassar-ers. Friends are not hard as some of them disappointed me before. I often tell new friends, my life starts from zero in this city, I don't wanna make it minus because of enemies. So, be good to me I'll return to you as well, be bad to me, that's okay, I don't take care your business too just get out of my life. Simple right :) This month we celebrated Kathina two weeks in a row at different temples. The first week I came as guest in a small temple, the second week I joined the pindapatta and ceremony at my hubby's temple, but things don't change, they still treat me like guest even I've already helped for pindapatta, so just let me be nice guest. Several days ahead I'm going to visit J town yeaaahh finallyyy haha for my bestie's wedding, planning to meet just some besties because it's really short trip. So, see ya pals.

Kota yang Unik

Jujur, aku bingung banget mau nyebutnya "unik" atau "aneh". Dari pengalamanku berpindah dari Medan ke Bandung ke Jakarta dan sekarang ke Makassar yang mungkin akan kuhabiskan sisa hidupku di sini (ga ada yang tahu kan kalo ke depannya pindah lagi haha), kota paling terakhir ini kota yang paling lain dari biasanya terutama karakter orangnya. Hmmm tapi ga bisa pure terlalu judge juga karena profesi yang beda di tiap kota. Di Medan, aku hanya masyarakat lokal, anak sekolahan, sehingga mungkin tidak terlalu nyadar seperti apa karakternya hingga pas aku kembali pas liburan baru terbaca karakternya seperti apa hahaha, di Bandung aku anak kuliahan, karakter nya mulai terbaca karena mulai berbaur dengan masyarakat lokal di sana, di Jakarta aku karyawan swasta terbaca juga karakter orang Jakarta, dan terakhir di sini tempat berlabuh *cie lha*. Untuk kota lain sebaiknya ga usah dibahas lha ya secara sudah berlalu dan aku nganggepnya itu masih wajar2 saja, yang paling lain dari biasanya kota yang kutinggali ini nih. Mungkin karena sekarang sebagian waktuku bergerak di bidang jasa yang melayani pertanyaan2 masyarakat lokal sini sehingga aku lebih bisa memahami karakter mereka hanya dengan pertanyaan yang mereka tanyakan. Pertanyaan yang kadang secara logika tidak mungkin mereka tanyakan, tapi kenyataan nya mereka bertanya seperti itu. Kadang itu sampe speechless ngejawabnya gimana secara udah jelas donk jawabannya. Jadi unik atau aneh? Hal yang ga mungkin terjadi di kota lain juga bisa terjadi di sini. Pola pikir, kebiasaan, beda banget pokoknya. Extraordinary! Ga tau harus senang atau sedih yang pasti hingga setengah tahun aku masih belum terbiasa di sini dengan semua "freak" masih sakit gesekannya sana sini belum bisa kebal kulitku ibaratnya. Hanya bisa menghela nafas panjaaaannnggg dengan semua pertanyaan, kebiasaan, pola pikir, dan karakter. Berdoa dalam hati semoga aku tetap pada pendirian dan menjadi salah satu dari mereka hahahaha, meski sendiri beda tapi lebih better daripada punya pola pikir begitu. Memang ga semua ya tapi mostly di sini begitu. Rindu banget sama teman2 di Bandung, Jakarta, Medan, teman2 baik di sana yang bisa disebut "teman" bukan yang hanya marut keuntungan. Teman yang tau bagaimana "act like friends". Yah, memang sih aku bisa dibilang ga punya teman sama sekali di sini. My life started from zero. Teman2 yang sekarang pun pasti butuh proses, tapi karena sedikit sixth sense aku dah bisa membaca karakter jadi daripada keki dan sakit hati lagi lebih baik jaga jarak haha. Gap"an masih kental di sini udah kayak zaman skolah aja mungkin di kota lain juga sih tapi karena ini tidak terlalu besar kotanya ya tapi ya kenyataan di lingkungan sekitar begitu. Semua orang pasti ktemu yang nyaman ya, semoga aku begitu juga.

2nd Month-3rd Month in 25th

2 months off from you, lots of events missed to tell you but pals, you know you're always get the complete one from the shortest story. 

Second month began with Idul Fitri holiday for a week. Me and my hubby spent quality time at home and a night in Karebosi Condotel, we enjoyed their infinity pool haha. Then another day met up with his high school friends, the next day celebrated my father in law's birthday, then back to routine activities. Not much story for this 2nd month, life was so so, flat, and like the usual days, met up with some friends, duty visit, and so on.

The date of my 3rd Month in 25th was exactly my 1st year having the culinary account. So much tears than laughs, downs more than ups, made me flash back the moments I've wasted building this account, my time, energy, and my ideas. Are what I'm getting worth? Poor, the answer is 'no' but my hubby keep supporting me, "be patience, soon." That word "soon" has no limited time and one year I'm building this, all my captions from my mind written on the social media, all my time consumed to reply those not logical comments, money to adding culinary database. Poorly to say but it's true, no value for most of people here. They don't even aware what I'm doing, they just pretend that this is part my hobby. Then, simple logical question? If this is my hobby, then where is my money come from to invest in this hobby, if I have my own money,means I have my own job, means no much time to take care this account. right? Conversely, why don't they think this is part of my job, so money I got from here made me could add culinary database, photo acessories, even my mobile phone quota, and my time consumed to write those all attractive captions on social media. They don't think so, what is they think just "she's so lucky, eat lots of food and being paid." They never think not all the food I like, healthy for my body, good taste.They never think this is part of service job because I sell service not product, so my service is unvaluable in their eyes. I don't know I could keep this account active because those kind of supports. But still I'm happy I have reached my 1st year, Happy Anniversary to me.

The next week, I got invitation duty visit to Bali, yeah, unplanned trip, so half holiday half duty means half paid, half free hahaha. So, we flied to Bali for 4 nights. Our trip was fun, using waze explored areas in Bali. Hope can write to you on next chance yaaa if I'm not lazy haha... Back to Makassar, life was flat again, haha.. daily activities. Last week of 3rd month, I accompanied my mother in law visited Balikpapan because sister in law's father in law passed away, so we made a condolence visit, explored a few culinary places near hotel. I often visit Balikpapan and there is not much local culinary spots haha.

See you next month pals!